whiskey and alfalfa

whiskey and alfalfa sprouts join hands for a dance around the fire and i think maybe, just maybe, poison makes for the best medicine...healing hands and wandering toes trace out clouds in seafoam as words fumble for clarity in a fuzzy world...i turn to look behind and find only me looking up at myself...little girl still, with hands in her pockets, staring at the moon...but now the lines on my face show a blueprint of my smile...well worn by cycles of watery change...dripping, slipping from my fingers...lessons wash over my footprints leaving only an open expanse with no traces of travel...fear can crash like waves on rocks, leaving clean polished stone naked and sparkling in vulnerable moonlight...breath of wildflowers in blood flowing outward, from the heart...building roots in cloud compost and teething on toes as i sit here beside you...i shift my eyes and squint past the sillouhette of your hair in the lamplight...now shines through cracks in the floorboards of yestermorrows, making old dust on new surfaces shine in moonlight bathed harmonies...stepping out to stretch my weary limbs in excited stardust i find worn out shoes and fresh paint meld in mirage mirror images to form polaroids with soft edges...cowboy boots and running shoes paint canvas while dawgs leave muddy prints on ball room floors...when time slows up and speeds down enough we can all remember to forget

skydiving

contemplation fills the quiet resting in the air around me tonight

and i find myself feeling old and young

and trying not to lose either.

some moments i'll swear that i'm losing my mind one day at a time,

others my body becomes a taller sort of small with being found.

rolling down the familiar roads of home,

it's sometimes okay to ask for directions anyhow.

new ideas and projects erect themselves,

like pillars of breathing,

and as i look past them enough to see the spiral

my warm breath weaves in the cold breeze,

i think just maybe i can let my guard down

and use it as a ladder for skydiving from the tops of tall words.

winds come and try as they might to jar my gravity

i'm waiting for spring.

the wind is makin' me hungry (or just crazy)

winds come, stretching out time and laying it underneath the sunshine to heal. thoughts wander between blowing branches and dust to wonder, still, about every step. intent and unconscious decisions guide me blindfolded through rolling hills to an unknown, but sworn, promise. my tummy growls, but it is my mind that is hungry! always searching out...always looking within...for more pieces of this puzzle, more vitality, more creation, more peace, more time to linger in those soft pockets of candle lit clarity. i sigh with breath made up half from contentedness and half of desire. perhaps, it is tinged, as well, with the inevitable uncertainty that is the root of all questions. i raise my face to the moment and my glass to the toast! with shy trust i keep moving forward, with blind faith i keep growing. to do my best to be of this beautiful light flowing through all that is, i vow. for a minute i almost let myself awaken to hear the mountains whisper across the miles that i am still the daughter, the mother, and the crone~

i forget

funny how great ideas always show up in clusters for me...one moment i am stoned stupid and staring at the wall and the next i suddenly know the answers, or at least the questions(which are sometimes more revealing in themselves than the answers they propogate)...spending so much time trying to decide what it is that i want to do i forget that i'm doing it and as i learn to look at the ground beneath my feet i can feel the sky eversomuch more...still, i do tend to get vision locked on the moon...but, projects rise like the sun on an ellipse that always lands right back in my lap before picking up velocity and orbitting back out into the universe again, to change shape and size once again and show up transformed to reflect me back to myself...anyhow, the leaves are falling as i type, the trees get chilled without their jackets, but the sun knows this and shines extra warm...the raindrops left from this morning have all been absorbed back up into the earth and sky and i think i'll have a second cup of joe

on some days memories are like little kids with muddy feet leaving footprints all over the kitchen when they come in...a good day for reading in a sun puddle while the crisp air slides around...dawgs snore and music plays, but today all i do is stare at the ceiling and wonder